I hate chastity. After a while it stops being a fantasy and it makes you more and more desperate per day. Makes you unable to focus, function and the slightest hint of a teasing - even involuntary - makes your life hell. And I miss orgasms. Very much.
Yet, when I think of her, I know that I would spend as long as she wanted me there. Despite my unwillingness to spend any more in the belt, in any belt. It’s not really a sacrifice if you’ve always wanted to do that. And now that I know that I don’t care for the chastity anymore, I realize how much I love this lady and how much I need her in my life.
I hope things work out for the best.