mellon collie and the infinite sadness

As i was growing up, i got heavily interested in female domination, in many of its forms. That used to be a seperate trait of my personality. I'd always seperate that from the rest of me.
Now? Now, i'm 31 and those boundaries are not so clear anymore.
So, rediscovering myself again.
I hate chastity. After a while it stops being a fantasy and it makes you more and more desperate per day. Makes you unable to focus, function and the slightest hint of a teasing - even involuntary - makes your life hell. And I miss orgasms. Very much.
Yet, when I think of her, I know that I would spend as long as she wanted me there. Despite my unwillingness to spend any more in the belt, in any belt. It’s not really a sacrifice if you’ve always wanted to do that. And now that I know that I don’t care for the chastity anymore, I realize how much I love this lady and how much I need her in my life.
I hope things work out for the best.

I hate chastity. After a while it stops being a fantasy and it makes you more and more desperate per day. Makes you unable to focus, function and the slightest hint of a teasing - even involuntary - makes your life hell. And I miss orgasms. Very much.

Yet, when I think of her, I know that I would spend as long as she wanted me there. Despite my unwillingness to spend any more in the belt, in any belt. It’s not really a sacrifice if you’ve always wanted to do that. And now that I know that I don’t care for the chastity anymore, I realize how much I love this lady and how much I need her in my life.

I hope things work out for the best.

Also,

fuck you defensive detachment. How come you’re not working now that you’re needed the most?

fuck you!

She’s 23 for crying out loud. What am I supposed to do with her?

toetallysugoi:

toetallysugoi:

Hey guys I’d really appreciate if you would check out this fund for me. I’ve come in to some really hard times lately and I’m really desperate for help. If you could just take the time to look at the fund or even share this post I would really appreciate it and it would mean the world to me thank you.

http://www.gofundme.com/cz1sfg

PLEASE GUYS PLEASE READ PLEASE REBLOG

toetallysugoi:

toetallysugoi:

Hey guys I’d really appreciate if you would check out this fund for me. I’ve come in to some really hard times lately and I’m really desperate for help. If you could just take the time to look at the fund or even share this post I would really appreciate it and it would mean the world to me thank you.

http://www.gofundme.com/cz1sfg

PLEASE GUYS PLEASE READ PLEASE REBLOG

I don’t really laugh about spelling errors anymore, I mean I only find it sad that some people keep making the same mistakes over and over again and no one ever corrected them; yes especially Dommes. “Chasity”? Oh come on.
But anyway, I came across a rather funny one. Some Domme who specializes in “Tea Viewer”.
Tea
Viewer
I cannot even..

I don’t really laugh about spelling errors anymore, I mean I only find it sad that some people keep making the same mistakes over and over again and no one ever corrected them; yes especially Dommes. “Chasity”? Oh come on.

But anyway, I came across a rather funny one. Some Domme who specializes in “Tea Viewer”.

Tea

Viewer

I cannot even..

a change of hearts

Submissive girls are a lot of fun to play with.

REBLOG IF YOU ARE A LITTLE/PET/SUB!

bdsm-collar:

princesslittlebee:

I WANT TO FOLLOW YOU!

Yes yes I Em

A dark soul, tortured by life itself writes about his demons. That’s my definition of an artist.

You know what’s the best compliment someone can give to a musician? Tell him how his music makes you feel things.

My love for Vic is beyond words. Who else could write such a song? Thank you Vic for writing this song. It makes me feel things. Makes me understand just a bit of what you went through in life.In 5 minutes.

Bad news incoming

teamviewer

I love the idea of having someone I barely know log in on my computer using teamviewer, spying on my stuff, and doing some minor modifications. I find the lack of control appealing.

Optionally, maybe you can show me your feet on skype (different computer) so that I get distracted from what you actually do on my computer.

Yes, you can disable my keyboard or even black screen me, just as long as you don’t delete anything or do anything too invasive (those 2 are limits).

I will tribute you before we even start.

Why not do this? (Newbies more than welcome too)

skype: gore_easter

kik: underherspell

Foot tales: a reflection

I just saw a video on a local very popular video/journal site, about a reporter interviewing members of the local BDSM scene. I recognized a lesbian couple that I met some years ago (see http://melloncollie81.tumblr.com/post/39877589344/foot-tales-pt-2-the-lesbian-couple). They are now probably the best name in the local business. I can’t help but recall some of the tips I gave them when I first met them (I was actually the one who got them into that, let alone the first one to worship their feet). They did them all and them some. They are probably filthy rich by now. OK, maybe not, but I guess they need a new house to host their shoes/clothes. Every girl’s dream, right?

The most interesting thought though is that I read in an interview of them last year how they were impressed by my foot worshiping skills. The truth is that I wasn’t that much into that! So, it wasn’t nearly as passionate as when I worshiped Princess’ feet. I think the obsession I had with her and her feet must have pushed me into an unreal worshiping frenzy unlike anything I’ve ever done. In a way, I wish I could experience what she experienced, see what it feels like to have someone go insane on your feet.

Also makes me think, how much will it suck for her when another guy will worship her feet. Can’t switch to lettuce after you had a fillet mignon, right? :P

Studying to this.

Yep.

I can see through you

I’ve been online far too long.

I know you already. Even if we’ve never talked before.

I know all about your insecurities as a Domme.

I know when you’re being confident and when you cover that behind a wall.

I know when a tribute excites you even if all you say is a cold ‘Thanks’.

I know when all you want to do is take the tribute and disappear. Sometimes my horny state makes me weaker than I should, but I really know about it. Maybe sometimes I hope that treating you with kindness (even when you don’t deserve it) will make you re-evaluate.

My knowledge comes from observation of hundreds of cases.

Do you really think you’re any different?

Maybe 1 in a 100 is different. The rest of you aren’t.

Is that bad? No.

But I like you knowing that I know how you think. Isn’t that an interesting thought?

Have you ever thought of going all “Fuck this, I’ll text my super vanilla ex and tell her that I’d pay her to touch and kiss her feet”?

Just for the lolz