mellon collie and the infinite sadness

About to do something very brave. Or very stupid.

One of these days, i’m gonna open up collarme and ask to serve the domme who’s on the main page. A totally random thing. Could be fun, no?

1. I do not care about your birthday, christmas, valentines, whatever day. Not unless I’m actually serving you. Stop ‘reminding’ me of those ‘important’ dates.
2. I do not care for ‘dommes’ whose only interest is money and do not care at all about the actual domination.
3. I do not care for clock-watching dommes. Can that be more ‘pro’? Don’t get mad then if people say that you are providing a service to them.
4. I do not care for Dommes who think they know everything just because they raped somebody’s wallet and he praised them to godly status. Get off your pony princess, everyone’s different. Just because you can toy with someone doesn’t mean you can do that to everyone.
5. I do not care for dommes who scream and shout like that’s the only way to tower over someone, especially over someone who is already a submissive.
6. I do not care for dommes who are all serious. That does not only apply to dommes, but it’s a huge turn off. I can understand stress, especially the first time, but only then.
7. I do not care for dommes who only seek long-term slaves. Those are lazy dommes who want to make sure that they don’t have to work, ever. Besides how stupid have you got to be to assume that in an online world long-term is even possible?
8. I do not care for dommes that do not plan to go on voice & cam. It’s 2013 and I’m too old for some text message to capture my attention.
9. I do not care for super greedy dommes. While i do get that you have to be somehow greedy to get into this scene, greed is a terribly person quality and i stay away from that.
10. I do not care for airhead dommes.

Dear Dommes, you know the deal: The very moment you mention that you are into (or interested in) blackmail, guys will come to you asking you to blackmail them. You go through some basics with them, they agree to everything you say, and right before it all starts they go away.

Sounds familiar?

Before you start blaming them for being retards and everything (a viewpoint that I’ll share with you most of the times), why don’t you try to understand why this thing happens?

Obviously you understand the excitement that the sub gets out of this. He willingly gives you full control of his life. That is scary. And exciting. Exciting for those who love the loss of control. Blackmail is probably the premium weapon of that category.

Blackmail is a big fantasy for most submissive guys. I’m guessing that this is what they think of right before they cum. It’s one of those things.

So, my take is that when the guy is super excited, he wants a taste of that. A little preview. And there you come along. Sorry to say it out like that, but your role is to help him indulge his fantasy. You take the bait, because, well, there is a potential monetary gain out of that, he gets to hear what will push him through the edge, he cums, the blood returns to the guy’s brain and poof, he’s gone.

My goal is not to ridicule blackmail, or blackmail slaves. But if someone you don’t know (or hardly know) approaches you to blackmail him, well, you got yourself a time waster.

From the submissive’s point of view, this is serious shit. You can’t just go to the first Domme and ask her to blackmail you. Do you know her? How can you trust her? Blackmail is about trust first and foremost.

I also can’t help but laugh at ‘blackmail contracts’ cause all they do is provide that kind of stimulation to time wasters. Stop that, you only feed the trolls.

Over and out.

bored

It’s funny how good things happen to those who are not searching for them. I guess there’s a good reason behind that and no, it does not involve ‘luck’.

I think it’s all about your expectations. If you want something to happen, if you expect something to happen so you can feel better, or gasp, even happy, they that’s probably not gonna happen. Expectactions create a dangerous loop in your head.

Either you lower your expectations or you abandon them at all. For me, someone who has high expectations of people, all I would get is disappointment. If you have no expectations from people then people can not hurt you. Misanthropic? Probably. Did that work? Hell yea.

The version of me who is emotionally undetached from anything could easily die today, at 30 something as a *happy* man. That version of me has fulfilled almost all of his fantasies, had a great time in the meanwhile, met tons of interesting people and helped people get through with their problems.

Then emotions kick in. All hell breaks loose. For someone who sounds so cynical, I can be quite emotional. Damn it. Emotions fight my (high) sense of logic. They do not always win, but even that fight leaves me a wreck. Emotions create expectations. And I’ve already explained where that leads to. Disappointment.

On a side note, have you seen ‘Shame’? If not, please do. It’s a great study on sexual addiction from the male point of view. Sure, I like watching female-pov films as it gives me an insight on how women think and operate, but damn it, a male-pov was due!

Why do I mention that? Well, I might have slipped in. I mean it’s strange. I do not feel the need to pursue sex, or even have sex and I’m sure that I radiate a “keep away” aura around me. And for some fucked up reason that attracts women? Argh?

3 sexual encounters with 3 different partners in one night can only mean one thing for me:

Goodbye emotions. We’ll meet again sometime, I can’t get away from you. But for now, hello detachment!

p.s. Yes, I’m taking a break from the findom world. One can only get too much of people thinking that guys owe them everything just because they state that they are Financial Dommes. Whoa!

I’m still playing with my beloved Princess, but I’m not sure if I’m forcing myself to do so, or just enjoy playing with her. Time will tell. Until next time fellow pervs!

This post will be written in a mathematics (kinda) way. Just because.

The clause:

((A Domme is verified by a community, findoms most usually) implies (She is not a scam artist)) is false.

Cam Verified Domme implies that she is like her profile picture, therefore it’s no dude.

Cam Verified Domme does not imply decency.

There are three things I’m thinking of right now. All at once:

Oh my God!

Shit!

Fuck yes!

Suppose you’re locking up your submissive for the first time. How long would you start him off?

If the world was fair, adobe flash masterminds would have a butt plug up their arses that would get thicker the very second they grew used to the pain.